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08 September 2009 @ 08:09 pm
I haven't hosted anything in a really long time. I don't know what happened to me...I used to enjoy having others over. I think it might have to do with me becoming more of an introvert. Regardless, to appreciate the season, what's left of it anyway I am forcing myself to have some friends over.

Funny thing is 1. I don't care if no one shows up. I've already got another plan. 2. this used to be a big deal to me. I would lose sleep over whether anyone would show up, and now, I'm almost preferring that be the case, so I can say at least I tried. 3. Themes don't always work out. I thought it would be cool to celebrate the turning of the calendar. For some reason I would hope that and wish that I had friends that were remotely interested in numerology and manifesting collectively. 4. I created an evite which I sent out to friends and posted on facebook. Largely more people responded that they would not be attending. Hostesses, at what point do you cancel an event?

Another funny thing is, I should be out getting supplies, and instead i'm here sharing about my "process". I read somewhere recently that usually those talking about stuff don't "DO" anything. In order to act, one must "stop talking about it, and just do something."

I have been compiling recipes. I have been contemplating appetizing bits, I have been planning for a party of me +1 or 2.

I've also been wondering if it's too late to bail out.